My Daughter Changed My Life

This is a piece a I received from an anonymous writer.

Reading it brought so many knobs to my throat... I am not sure if I should blame it on the emotions that comes with the pregnancy or if its a "mommy" thing :)

Two months before our wedding  we were blessed with the most amazing gift from God,  we were going to be parents. 

We were ecstatic and nervous all at once. During the pregnancy I made many plans for our little angel. During the last few months of my pregnancy we were told that retrenchments would be happening within the department at work. This stressed me out a lot seeing that we had this big responsibility coming our way. 

What added to this stress was that our lease at the flat we were living in was up for renewal. I was not sure to renew or not especially with the unknown of who was going to be retrenched at work and I couldn’t leave everything up to my husband to deal with. 

In the 9^th month of my pregnancy we moved to my parents. Moving was easy on me as I didn’t lift a finger. No one wanted me to touch anything to which I was grateful for. I could hardly walk at this stage. 

I was more at ease having my mom around during the last few weeks of my pregnancy especially after having my unplanned c-section. I had a lot of support from my parents and my in laws.

We did not know the gender of the baby until the birth which is such an amazing experience, waiting for the doctor to announce it to us but in our case our doctor showed the baby to my husband and he then shouted “It’s a boy!!!! Oh no, it’s a girl!!!!” 

This was the most amazing feeling I could ever have felt. I could feel the tears just rolling down my face. I was never an emotional person but since then tears are now part of my life. 

I had a complicated birth but it was all worth it, I would do it all just for her; the sleepless nights, the pajama days; all worth it. Seeing my baby girl laying on my chest changed my life forever, everything revolves around her. Since her birth I would find myself just taking my cellphone and looking at photos of her. 2 years later and I still do it, I look at baby photos and start crying.

Just recently I watched a reality series on TV and realized that my life has changed so much over the past 2 years since I had my little girl. Some people may think I’m boring and I don’t know how to have fun but I am happy and content.

 I have a beautiful family and that is what I live for. 

Wherever I go, my little girl goes too. There has only been a few occasions where she was not with me at weddings etc but every outing myself and hubby does we take our little girl along. 

When she is not around I don’t have fun and I miss her too much. I look forward to my weekends so that I can spend time with her. I rush home in the evenings with a smile, knowing when I step through the door my little girl comes running saying “ hello mommy”. 

Every night as she is put to bed I thank God that he gave me this beautiful blessing. She has not only changed her mom & dad’s life but also all the family that surrounds her. She is such a caring and sweet little girl, when she says “ sowi mommy” and kisses me on the forehead, it just melts my heart. 

Being a mother is a hard job, there is no book that is able to prepare you for this amazing full time job. I am not perfect at it but I try my best to raise her to the best of my ability. I feel honored that God has given me this beautiful life to take care of.

Everything I do in life is for her. I try to live a better life and build a good life for myself so that I can raise her with good values and everything she needs in life.

I couldn’t imagine a life without her.